The departure lounge shooting has gone far better than expected. It was an interesting experience returning to the hospital and I never expected it to be so emotional. I have all the prints complete now and even though I plan to make the project even more long term, I am in the process of making a cloth hardcover book. This time the visit was far more emotional and I haven’t really felt so attatched to my own work for a while so it’s a good feeling. It’s also one of the first things on the course this year I felt proud of, other stuff is a bit hit and miss. I think there is one patient I met at the hospital that day which changed my whole perspective and outlook on the project. I sat talking to him for over an hour. He was so intreguing. At the end he held my hand and was talking about how much he hated being at the hospital yet when he leaves he is left with nothing because his wife ran off after he got ill. He told me “I don’t want to die yet. I’m a fighting spirit. I’m just not ready” and by this point I was nearly in tears. I think when I originally shot the project when I was sixteen, I was far more detatched from what I was doing where as this time I began to realize the underlying tension and sadness that hospitals have. There are many juxtapositions in the work such as how the patients try to personalize the institutional space they are in and how as caring as the nurses are, the patients are handicapped from life, they’ll never be the same, and some.. morbid as it sounds.. are just waiting to die. On another note, hopefully the book will be ready for a couple of week and I’ll scan it in and some of the final prints.
For now I just thought I’d most something I did earlier in the year. We had this project where we had to construct an ‘internal landscape’ in the studio. Basically we had to build a mini scene in the studio and could build whatever we were compelled to build. It couldn’t involve models, it had to be on a small scale still life scale. I have always been interested in film noir so I created a noir inspired scene using mini houses that I built, a figurine and a smoke machine…




